How can you be both blank and thinking at the same time? Lately, I have just been blank about almost everything. For someone who gets super hyped, and tensed over small things, I have been quite relaxed for even largely significant things, not relaxed in my thoughts, but very relaxed with my actions. Its like I have just let go of all the threads I was holding, to everything. I have just let go and I am just waiting for things to fall in place on their own. I don’t know if it will, cause they say that you need to do something to make something happen, and not just wait for time and destiny to do your work, cause that will never happen, you have to make things happen. Something like, “God helps those, who help themselves.” But then, what if you have tried and done everything that you could, and there
is nothing you or anyone can do anymore. When somethings are just out of your reach, what do you do about it, don you just wait and watch? When I was younger, I came across this prayer in some movie I was watching. It really helped sort my head quite a few times, so I always remember it. It goes like,
“Oh God! Please give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the Wisdom to know the difference.”
Though sometimes, it makes me wonder, am I lacking the courage to change things, or being too serene and accepting things, or am I really being wise enough to differentiate between the things I can or can’t change? But then again, I am really relying on God, my instincts to give me that wisdom and hence I am acting based on those instincts. So at the moment I am not acting, I am just waiting and watching, and maybe that’s why I am blank, cause I am not really doing anything about anything, but not ignorant, so thinking about everything all the time.